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thisvulnerablemoment;iledmyselftoadownfall
Sunday, 3 October 2010
i can't believe i let myself falter , i did nothing but watch my past relive . 

i broke my promise to not let it happen again . 
i have a sugar-coated life . i'm fragile yet strong . 

its sweet on the outside . what's inside , is a surprise .
i dont get people . why do they always destroy my self-confidence ?
they make me feel so small . i hate them . because of them i have never been able to show myself . because of them , i'd rather be alone . because of them , i let myself fall but i can't get back up . because of them , i am slowly being anti-social . because of them , i wanted to be somewhere dark and alone .
isn't that enough for you guys ? what did i do wrong ? why are they so much better than me ? i felt like was never on the same plane as them . its enough that i let myself being stepped on . 

i dont see it getting better . and in this moment ; where i'm most vulnerable ,
i broke my own promise . i made the same mistake again . 
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile