all i wanted is for everything to be back like its suppose to be . IMY
somehow, because of this , I hate the present . Maybe I was wrong .
The past shouldn’t be dead .

some people just change to the extreme . all i wanted is everything back like before . these screams i kept silent . waiting to explode anytime . IMY

This year’s hari raya is as boring as last year’s . yeah . It is as mundane as any other day . I don’t feel the ‘suasana hari raya’ .

Anies, today went to Tok Sudin’s house . How lucky today .
Get to meet Tok Aziz Satar . Those two veteran actors are sure still funny . There was a singer there too . Don’t remember her name . Didn’t even know she’s a singer . LOL .

After that go to mom’s uncle’s house . Then jammed with my uncles there . Played with their electric guitar . woowh ! then We played songs together .

Then go to Nek Jenab’s house . Sheeesh ! Didn’t bring uniform . If not can sleep there . Tomorrow easy to go sch . Just right opposite . Neh-mind .

Today monet collection bleh tahan . Got mostly $10 dollars or more .
buh byee

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Farhan shah : Haha . Yeah . Agree2 . Not at all gerek . Hari Raya doesn’t feel like hari raya at all .  

Sch was pretty much normal. After sch played carpark catching with slerph and one extravaganza, danial afiq.
okaay make it two , nureen was there too.
played for awhile then nureen accompanied me to dad’s got $10 to buy food for bukaa. had mcspicy, wooah !
Good luck nureen for spelling bee tmr ! and mukminin too . lol
jk , I mean muhaimin . haha .
 

Yeah. Back to sch , );
Got band. Almost fall asleep. Didnt get to join all boys play carpark cacthing. hmphf .
Miss hanging out with Slerph . Go home with Putri Gan and Farah . laughed all the way . Got home mom surprised me with Bibimbap for buka . Yumm . hahs .
Nth to write . As you knw I’m blurrh and my mind always blaaaank . Okaay , I think that’s all I’m gonna write . bb

5 days to RAYA . wooowh ! 2 weeks to E-Y-E .
aaw .
and exactly how many weeks to buck up in maths ?

First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS NG

Today , was okayy . The guitar perfo was ,, urh ? haha . like no one sing lehhs . paiseii u knw . haha . okayy . pass liao .

First time performing in front of a crowd . so , excused i guess .
After tht cabot . lepak with the guys at libry . cooling .

kaees . then . the end ..

((:

yeah . read the title babe . your lame . haha !
lame.lame.lame.

bluehk ! haha !

but seriously , you are .

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Ryan ;

haha . my name got heart , better than yours that got smiley smile . bluehk !

 

Sorry my dear girls . I didn’t turn up last minute . you guys must be mad at me right ? We have been waiting for this day , to hangout . & I ruined it . Damn damn sorry . I feel bad . gosh , i’m such a dufus .

hope you guys forgive me .

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I feel damn bad . mom gave me $30 , which is the only money left from her salary .
I feel so bad . I knew life would be like this now . My life wasn’t like this before .
How can I enjoy Hari Raya or any other festive with this condition ?

Must it be this bad ? I can hardly ‘touch’ money .
Pretending none of this is happening is ain’t working .
Even asking for a single cent , I would get a horrible scream from my parents .
Trying my best not to blame anyone but my mouth won’t shut .

wait . one more commercial . funny one !

can’t stop laughing . watch ^^

hahhaha !!

Totally knew that was coming .

came across this add when was searching for funyy commercials .

thts all for today . lols . buhbyee

missed sahur – again .
Japanese pizza for buka .

Drenched in those dead memories . Is there any way to bring them back alive ? Let the past be dead , and may the future be born .

Everyone here is so ignorant . I am so out of place .
I damn knew I chose the wrong school .
My class isn’t a class of humans , but monsters .

someone kill me please . those monsters think their so perfect . but stupid , in the fact
go die !!

My parents can be v. annoying . sometimes I just wish I never know them .
Their fucking attitude disgust me . Really , just get a life .
AND I’M NOT DAMN FAUCKING SORRY IF I JUST SHOUT OR SCREAM AT YOU !

You don’t know how much I hate going out with my parents . If you’d know , how much I avoid talking to them . They are old-fashioned people who are damn ignorant .

Dad started out making problems at Boon Lay MRT station . Tak bleh sabar pe ?
Kate je dah pegi haji , tp perangai tu bkn nye nak ubah . Padan muke kene marah ngan nyony tuu . Kalaw ikot kan hati , aku yg akan marah kaw plus aku tampar kaw skali .

Mom was damn irritating . Wants me to buy my baju raye by today . okaay , fine . Buy I don’t want to . Still , ni betina tak paham bahasa . You yourself tk beli baju , you want to save money . This year nak pakai colour blue . Aku kan dah ader kat rumah , tk bleh ke aku pakai yg itu ? baru pakai sekali last year . Then you show me that fucking attitude face .
AND I’M NOT SORRY FOR SCREAMING AT YOU .
I was like , “ Dah lah , Ya dh ader colour blue kat rumah . Pakai yg tu je . Abeh asal ? tk puas pe ? Kaw sendiri tk beli pe . Diam-diam sudah lah !”

Nak balek pon buat hal . CB nye pompan .

I just wish I was no one . I feel I knew no one here . Can I just DIE?