this falling disguise

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i put on a grrt show with every mask , do applause
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29.04.09
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
I'm so f**ked up & frustrated with my life.
The problems that just suddenly appeared is too frustrating.
Exaams is coming ahead & I don't these problems to affect it.

The root of my problems are always,
My mom [not really] , my dad, my grand parents.
Sometimes both parents.

This time, its my dad's.
But it had made my mom making problems too.

And the victim is always me & my little brother.
I just pity him. His soo young & he doesn't know anything.

My dad wants to work as a security officer.
Which this means, his working days would be very strict.
He, of coz, would not be able to bring my brother to work,
like he does now. - [ becoz he works at his friend's ]

And the big problem we would have is,
WHO is going to take care of my brother.
& he happily say put my 1+ year brother at home!

Hello?!
My mom's working too!
I'm schooling.
And he could say that?
Leave my brother ALONE !
At home!

IS HE SOO UNEDUCATED OR STUPID??
DZIA IRFAN IS NOT EVEN 2 YEARS OLD!

I JUST DON'T GET HIM!

NOW, MY MOM IS SO MAD AT HIM.
MY BROTHER IS NOW THE VICTIM.
I AM SO DAMN TIRED OF MY DADS ATTITUDE.
I AM DAMN SICK OF THESE TEARS I SHED.

DAD,
IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TAKE CARE OF OUR EXPENSES,
ESPECIALLY MY BROTHER!
THEN DON'T!
IF YOU CAN'T, THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE 'MADE' MY BROTHER!

I AM GLAD TO HAVE MY BROTHER.
AND YOU CAN'T TAKE CARE OF HIS EXPENSES,
I WILL.
I WOULD STOP SCHOOLING IF I HAVE TO!




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27.04.09
Monday, 27 April 2009
Helloo!!

Wow.wow.wow!
I sooo did not realize examm is like...
NEXT WEEK!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg!

Time do fly faast!
How to make it go slower??

huhu..

good luck 2E1!!!
all the best!

Wish good luck aites!
- [ especially on maths ]
hahs

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25.04.09
Saturday, 25 April 2009

Life seems so hard for me.
Isn’t there a chance for to be happy.

Whenever happiness come around,
it never last long.
That instance, sadness and misery
destroys it all.

I try to wear a mask of happiness in school.
Oh, yes, I succeed.

But at home,
I could not hold back my tears.
My smile looks so damn fake.

I swore, swore to myself.
I don’t know her!
Never did.

If she were to go, just go.
You’re just making everything worst here!
No, I never take back the words I say.
Neither do I regret.

I no longer know you.
You, you!
You STRANGER!

& as I tear writing this,
trying so hard to remember.
Trying, to remember who the DAMN are you?
Your face is NEVER familiar.

YOU DAMN SINFUL OLD LADY!

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23.4.09
Thursday, 23 April 2009

Helloo!

hmm..it’s like a lonq time since I last blog.
Anies,, today was full of laughter.
Maths class, laughed
Englich class, laughed
- [ starting scaryy ]

 After school, kekek mautz gilerr.
I go slack2 with Ahmad, Haikel & Syamil.
We went to our usual spot, @ the playgrnd.

On the way there..
at the pedestrian crossing,
an Auntie riding bicycle almost collide with another cyclist – but did not.

So Haikel was like,
“ Ah, mati, langgar! Boom..Pakk..Boom!”

Semangat plak tuu!
Dengan tangan2 skali tunjuk.

Then the auntie said that if she & the cyclist
did crashed and she died, Haikel like is it?

Haikel keep saying, Yah.
Trouble maker siaa this guy.

Last2 kena maki.hahs..

Then at the playground we make
silly malay poems. –[or is it rhyme??]

Then otw back home,
they made up stupid silly songs..
Huhu,, just like what Haniss & I
would do..
I damn miss her!

What more, they made up the songs at the place I & Haniss would
make our silly, stupid song!

&& I damn, damn miss those times.
- well I don’t forget you too, Fatin.

Trio Psychos Forever,

here are some vids,, enjoy!

Haha, konek Haikal besar!
Alermak!
This vid..
Haikal kurang ajar!!
Tolak aku!
Ter-golek aku taw!!

Kaees thats all for today..

Liyann(:

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21.4.09
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
Hellooo!!

These days, the weather is damn hot.
I had a haaard time sleeping.
Some would suggest using the air-con,
- to those -
Have learn Geography before??

Conserve energy lahh.
The more we use, the temperature may rise higher in the future.
hahs.

I used to sleep with my body fully covered with my blanky!
Usually I use 2 blankies to cover me when sleeping.
But currently, I'm using 3!
hahs.

I used them no matter how hot, humid the weather is.
I took no care.

But this April, made me kick my blanky off my bed!
Poor blanky, Sowwie!
& still, I refuse to use the air-con.

I'm so looking forward to EYES SET TO KILL's new song!
Hahs.
Good nightz, people out there.
Sleepy ahhs.

bye..
Leaa(:
So..
Are you still giving me FAKE hopes??
Is it real?
Am I fooled?
Now I'm letting eyes cross.
You left me in thoughts.
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15.04.09
Thursday, 16 April 2009

Olahh!!

lolz..
Todayy got NAPFA test.
hahs.
I nampak sahh PASS.

I guess get bronze.
Haha. duno.don’t care.
Dahh pass tu pn dahh bagos.

haha.
VERY GOOOOOD!!
lol.

But tomorrow NAPFA 2.4km test.
aiyoo!!
Lazy larhs.
How many weeks never run already.
Takk bolehh tahan lahh like that.

Anies, VERY GOOOOD LUUUCK TO ME((:
heehee..

 

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14.04.09
Wednesday, 15 April 2009

hell00

Just now went slack2, lepak2zz with
My best friend, Fatin, Haikal & Syamil.

Went to my old spot at 623.

We cam-whored & did stupid things.
hahs.

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Great times..
lolz

Watch this vids.
Haikal & Syamil tried retrieve free drinks
with banging a vending machine there.
Rather stupid, I KNOW.

Soo..BELO!!

Then Suhaimi called.
A few times. & we decided to kacau him.
Fatin..Mautz.
She spoke in a merepek voice,
pretending to be Aisha.

Like, what the hell??
Who’s Aisha anyway? hahs

I did some parts too.

Kene pe Suhz?
Bingitz?

Kesian Suhaimi…lol.
We recorded the best prank we did todayy.
Kekek maut babz gilerr.

Listen yaww!


MusicPlaylistRingtones
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Baek, background ader org suroh aku diam.
Siakk je.
ABeh satu part me & fatin jawab same timing.
Cakap bende samer plk tuu.

lol.
Aku ketawe nk tergolek-golek.
hahahx enjoy

late already.byee

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I LOVE I-SCREAM!!
Monday, 13 April 2009

I LOVE ICE-CREAM!!


i :heart: icecream by =NaBHaN on deviantART
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13.04.09

Wooots!

This morninq was hard!
It wasn’t easy taking care of a little brat!

Hahahs.
How dare I say that about my lil’ bro.
But seriously,
it ain’t easy.

Well as I was webbing through
DEVIANTART.COM
the web I surf to look for great art.

I found this,


Alien Invade by ~b-n-d on deviantART

Cool pix right??
Nice work.
Hmm…can anyone teach me how to use
Adobe Illustrator??


Present from a Stranger by *JohnSu on deviantART

This one’s really, really nice.


The Sun and The Moon by ~joied6 on deviantART

Love the colour in this


A Bright Idea by *OwaikeO on deviantART

Love this art work. So creative!!


Pop by ~photoshop-addict28 on deviantART


2008 A Plugs Space Odyssey by ~minimalminds on deviantART


black and white by ~cloning on deviantART


The Great Recycler by ~aphaits on deviantART


Raining Cats and Dogs by *JohnSu on deviantART


The only apple by *krisagon on deviantART


Stud Muffin by ~squishypuff on deviantART

MUFFIN.MUFFIN.MUFFIN((:


mom.. ? by *willylorbo on deviantART

Cuuuute


Notebook SlurpeeTee by =cronobreaker on deviantART


Global Cooling. by ~foxstep on deviantART

Kaaes

thats all for todayy.

liyann((:

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12.04.09
Sunday, 12 April 2009

Helloo!!

First of all,
CONGRATULATIONS TO FUNKY GROOVERS
FOR BEING THE CHAMPION CREW OF SBDC.

WOOOOOOWWHH!!!

And wow!
You guys will be representing
SINGAPORE!!

Btw,

KUANG AJA KAW SHAID.
PANDAI2 JE BUAT CERITE!!

kaee lahh.

thts all for todayy.
BYEEE!!

Liyann

 

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11.04.09
Saturday, 11 April 2009

Todayy,
suppose to do lego project.
In the end we didn’t even touch the project.

Huhuh.

Then, Haikal, Mel & me went to Jurong Point.
Coincidently met Wan.

blah.blah.blah.

Pastu gii slackz..

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Wan candid!!

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Bendemeer Sec played
Jalan – Jalan ( The Vision of the Isle of the Gods)
For SYF!!
I was like OMG.
They played it well!!

Compare theirs and the original!


Jalan Jalan - Bendemeer Secondary School

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Jalan-jalan - Vision of the Isle of the Gods - Shinya takahashi
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SYF2009

When it comes to this topic,
I feel soo malas.

But what to do??
What has happened, had happened.
& now its the past, nothing I can do to change it.
-well if only I could go back in time,, (: lawls

Yeah.yeah.
Its about the SYF .
Was so energetic, soo excited, soo hopeful.
But the result was soooo disapointing.
sooo soooo soooo…??

It started out with a greaat morninq.
Cause we could report to school at 9.

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Mind you again!
This is not the BOYS’ toilet.
It is in fact a GIRLS’ toilet!
Yang aku nk masok boys’ toilet buat perrh kan??
Cam tkder keje gituu.

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Otw to SCH.

Well we got bronze.
hmm..
Better than nothing right??

But I couldn’t hold my tears.
I did cry.
Even though I told the others,
As long we don’t get C.O.P, its fine.

Easy for me to say.
But it was damn difficult to take in the truth.
It was surprising.
We were expecting SILVER at least.

Damn judges.
THEY MUST BE DEAF!!
It was our best performance!

BRONZE?? BRONZE??
Judges, YOU KIDDING ME??
ARE YOU DEAF!!??

Well, lets not talk about it anymore.
Where the hell are my parents??


Juying Sec SYF 09- Sail of Time – JYSB

Well, honest speaking.
There were many mistakes.

Hahahs.
Some parts we came in too fast.
Was bar 209 messy??
Better luck next time.


JYSB SYF09-Overture No.1.mp3 - Juying Sec Symphonic Band

Creds Meiying for sending the overture to me.
To the who record it, aiyo!!
Sooo many noises.

 

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