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Thursday, 27 December 2007
a new year. a new school. a whole new environment. does this means there must be a new me? new attitude? must I be matured? no! I'm still me. and even I'm in a new school, I dare and will break the school rules. even in the school there are hot and cut guys. I won't fall for them I only like him. He is my only crush. I know we can never be together. But it does not make me forget him. And I'll be the old me. Forever. !!!!
Friday, 21 December 2007
ok.. primary school ends. and here comes the secondary school. it's starting soon! I'm not excited but wanting to be way far away. the new school's ok but the only.. about the socks. we have to wear a sock with our school name. not only that. its thick like as if we were wearing socks for the winter. what more..the shoes we have to wear is black! Black shoes and thick socks, DAMN! imagine how hot it'll be. when P.E... that's the worst. soon my feet will be barbecued! This is where I'll break the rules of wearing white socks with school name on. I'll wear ankle socks instead. like who cares? Teachers! catch me! PUNISH ME!! FYI!! I'M HAPPY TO BE PUNISHED!! Life sux!
Monday, 17 December 2007
having a very bad mood these days. Life's miserable. heart scarring days. Fight with my dad was awful. He could say anything he wants about me. Saying me this and that. None of them were true. I can't just stand there and be dead! I fought back. Mom says not to. But I have dad's attitude. I hope that as days go by, the fight disappears. Heys!
sorry for not posting a long time. -I guess! results too which I'll be dropped at is near. and so is the west coast park party with the 6Gs. since we're going back to school, I hope to do more trouble there before leaving. Those tomes escaping school talks and concerts were fun! hiding inside cupboards were squeezy but memorable. I'll upload some pix if you wanna see. Not only that, the videos we took too. Don't take them away from me...
Thursday, 13 December 2007
all the memories, all the fun, all the trouble we get in. those precious memories.. I'll never forget. Especially the gang, the friends to be exact. I'll miss them hell loads. I miss the boys most cause I seldom meet them.. -well almost never! The girls..always talk on phone and always meet. -not always. I miss being bullied by the boys. All the pain, it hurts much. I would bare it as long we're still together! I don't care being beaten hard! I don't care being pulled by the hair! I don't care being kicked! I don't care! I don't! At all!! I don't care having fights with the girls! I don't care being neglected! I don't care if there's riots between us girls! I don't care being leftoutgurl! Just don't take them away from me!! Don't!!!!! Why THEM?!?!?!
Tuesday, 11 December 2007
I've been dreaming of two guys in separate dreams.. But why? Why them?? Those dreams comes surprisingly, without any warning. Those guys are whom I regard as my brothers. But why do they keep appearing in my dreams. It's been two months now.. And I just had a dream about one of them yesterday.. oops sorry, this morning. I'm getting ready for the next dream. But it won't appear until I'm unaware of it. what are these dreams trying to tell me? I'm okay..I guess.
Wednesday, 5 December 2007
Everything seems fine. Every thing's confusing. Everyone seems happy... but me.. Yes, there's a big smile on my face. But my heart was down. The smile was the only thing that could hide my inner self. I'm still broken deep down inside. However, no one can fix it back. No one can mend it back. Hiding my broken self wasn't a good idea. it hurts me more.. you can kill me now..
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