this falling disguise

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DAR-Links

DEAD!
Thursday, 30 August 2007
Imagine..
if fatin and jane died..
when your life ends..
I will be wondering,
did you get what you deserve?
if I were to judge.
I would have say,
yes! you deserve it!

this is what I've waiting for my whole life!
and if you get to heaven..
I'll be wondering.
do you deserve to go there?
I'll be saying..
NO!

for all the things you did..
you go to heaven?
that isn't fair at all!

but..
If you two were really dead!
I would have been laughing my whole life!
I can't tell how happy I would be!
fatin n jane..
DEAD!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..!!

the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

to "jane"
you're always the leader
you're always in charge
you're always making stupid rules for 'us'.
I was convincing everyone not to follow those fucking rules,
but you dumb people just follow it.
so..i was the only one breaking it.
jane..
you're the worst leader
I've ever have,
heard of and seen.
you're the one who make the rules,
you're also the one who break it.
you're always sulking for something small,
and sometimes because of nothing!
we are better without you!
if you're with us,
you make everything worst!
now..
you're with fatin..
I WISH YOU TWO NEVER EXIST.
SINCE YOU DO EXIST,
I WISH YOU WERE DEAD!



the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

to 'fatin"
hey fucker!
up to something fucking?
I'm not done with you!
I'll make your life miserable!
I'll make you cry like hell!
I'll make you so sad, humiliated and you will regret for every thing you've done to me!
I'll give you the sweetest revenge!
I'll make you want to commit suicide!
I promise!
My life will never be in peace until your dead!
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Fatin SUX 4EVA!!!
Wednesday, 29 August 2007
hey fatin..
you know what?
you suck like hell!
for every nice things I said to you..
I never mean it!
All I wanted is to get revenge and embarrass you.
you motherfucking attitude make me sick
why must you exist in this world?
you not needed,
no one liked you (except affandy)
you're no use.
I know you hate me..
So do I!
I hate you so much that I want to make you so heart-broken!
I'll make you suffer.
I'll make you be neglected your whole life!
I'll make you feel so bad and sad that you feel like committing suicide.

the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Hate you!! (continue)
Monday, 27 August 2007
I talk in good English and accent.
guess what?
you tried to follow,
but you made it worst.
the way you talk,
the way you walk,
the way you speak,
and ESPECIALLY..
YOUR STYLE
were mine!
you copied it.
why? why?
I'M ASKING YOU WHY?
why MUST you be like me?
don't you have your own originality?
be yourself!
you follow my style
and try to do it better.
you want to be better then me.
I'LL TELL YOU WHAT!
YOU WORST THEN A PIG
OR A FUCKING GEEK!
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Hate you!!
you wanted to be cool.
you want to follow my style,
you want to have all that I have.
I have 1 question to ask you,
Are You Following My Style To Be Cool?
or
Are you following my style so that others think we're best friends?
I hate you!
When I have something new,
you want it.
When I have something cool,
you want it.
You want the EXACT SAME THING!
you even ask me to give you mine for free!
Ya! You didn't read it wrong.
She asked it for free!
FREE!
does she think its so easy to get it?
...
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

I'm Not..
Sunday, 26 August 2007
I'm said to be lovable
I'm said to be remembered
and everyone loved me..
but that was then.
now,
I'm just a useless girl like my mom usually call me
I'm not lovable
no one loved me
no one cared
nothing i do is right
I'm useless

the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Life sux
Saturday, 25 August 2007
life sucks!
I hate my life
I hate myself
I hate my parents
I hate everyone!
no one cared for me
if they do.
they're just pretending
like. what the fuck are they doing?
pretending?
you can't act! you can't!
you can't lie to me!
no one can!
'cause I'll know it not just by looking at what you're doing!
but also by heart.
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

What Am I To You?
Friday, 24 August 2007
who am I?
what am I?
am I a doll TO YOU?
AM I? AM I?
I'M ASKING YOU!
AM I A DOLL TO YOU?
you play with me when everyone neglected you.
you throw me in the corner when they are back with you.
you all pass me around like your playing pass the parcel.
oh sorry! DID I GET THAT PART WRONG?
ITS PASS THE STUPID DOLL WASN'T IT?
so..
what am I to you?

the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Are we that coincidence?
all the words we say.
all the things we do,
and almost all the things we like are the same.
must we share all those?
almost all our crushes.
actually all but just one.
ONE!
are we that coincidence or what?
must we share the same boyfriend in the future?
or worst!
share the same husband!
you think its cool.
to me its not at all.
NOT AT ALL!
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE
Tuesday, 21 August 2007
I'm so safe..the problem is quite fixed..
but still..I blame her..for everything
oh god..help me..I just can't get loose of her..
she's like a powerful magnet..using its force..
pulling me towards her..making me stick to her..
things to me that are serious was a joke to her..
my problem was big..even if it happen to her..
I know she'll be like me..but now..
she's laughing like mad..even though she knew..
it was all her fault.
it was her! Her!
HER!
HER!!!
I'll get my revenge..
a sweet revenge..
she'll regret it..
I promise that I will!
THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE!
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Saturday, 18 August 2007
can't believe it..
I fell for you..
I followed what you requested me to do..
how could I be so dumb and stupid..
I promised my self not to but I did...
I was like under your control..
I did what you asked me to.
and now I'm in big trouble..
help..
I'm going to be dead...
because dumb me followed
what she asked me to do...
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Its just too complicated
Friday, 10 August 2007
Its too complicated... Its just too complicated..
Its really really complicated...
Friendship is hard...Both teams want me...
But both teams doesn't care or love me at all...
When I'm hurt..All they say was...
"So? Its none of my problem!"
I thought they would care..I thought they would help...
And now I know...They don't...They don't care at all...
They fought for me...They word of war for me...
Now I know...Who to choose or where to go...
I'll go on my own...
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Tuesday, 7 August 2007
I tried to run.. I tried to hide..
but what?
there you are standing beside me..
But should I do?
What must I do? What can I do?
your always there...
Standing beside me..
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Too stupid to be true
Sunday, 5 August 2007
Too stupid to be true...
That is totally me...
I knew what you'll do...
And I won't fall for it...
My stupidness made me believe every single word you said..
Your pleas made me look stupid...
I believed you...
Once again...
I fell for you...

the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

It's All because Of you!
Saturday, 4 August 2007
YOU! started all the fights!
YOU! made the problems!
YOU! have planned it!
YOU! wanted our gang to be destroyed!
YOU! wanted me all to YOURSELF!
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

BFFN
are you my best friend? or are you not?
hurt me enough so I think your my BFF
Ooops! 4 got the 'N'
get it? your my BFFN!
as in Best Friends For Never!
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

Am I?
Thursday, 2 August 2007
am I really unwanted?
am I really left out?
am I really heart broken?
am I really all the above?
then why no1 cared about me?
do any1 really cared about me? but who? who will?
please!!! any1 who really care..post me a comment telling that you do care
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

to fatin...and if your really nurul fatin bte ismadi pls don't read this
Wednesday, 1 August 2007
dear fatin,
I thought I could trust you...
but you backstab me so as the others
I admit that I too backstab you and so as the others...
but your attitude still hurt me...
and the others too...
Your promises were uncountable...
But what can I do..
I did really trusted you...
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile

BFF
our friendship broke many times...
our friendship mended back times too...
we hurt each other thousand or maybe million times..
we are hurt by our harsh words...
the mean things we did to each other...and our fights with full of strength and revenge...
all we wanted was mean and bad revenge...
afterwards we mend back our friendship n be friends again..
this happens more than 5 in a month....
I don't know until when this will continue...
but I hope this will not continue untill we're old...
the crack of evil laughter behind this sweet, innocent smile