daddy’s been such a fuck . scolding me for no apparent reason . i didn’t bother or disturb you what chibai !saying at home i do nth tht brings wealth . ahha , what you want me to do ?
i want to get a job , you don’t let me . bodoh nyaa jantan ! saying that as if i don’t exists here . uhrm , in inference – you actually don’t want me to exist . yelah , dah adaa anak jantan kan ? anak yg di banggekn, aku dah tak bergune . mcm sampah kaw simpan kat rumah .
from tmr onwards , i’ll go out and not comeback . i’ll do whatever i want as long its not at home . that’s what you want right ? don’t worry , you won’t see me . you do whatever you want . i never care . you say whatever i do at home doesn’t bring wealth right ? you sleep all day , does that even bring wealth . you ask me to use my brain . i do . you don’t . adaa otak pon tak gune . now we’re here in this house because of who ? because of you ! why didn’t you use your damn fucking brain ??? do you even have a brain ? you wanna see me gone . literally and really gone ? and i’ll walk the door and never come back . but that is too stupid to do . i wanna see you suffer . from now , i’ll go out the door early in the morning everyday and return when clock almost strikes twelve midnight . uhrm , let’s make after the clock strike midnight . and don’t damn fucking tell me off . you are nobody of me . because i don’t exist to you right ? you know what ? congrats . you no longer have a daughter

sometimes ,
memories of you kissing me shot back up my head like a bullet .
leaving me here dying , bleeding to death .

i’m a girl with a thousand faces .
each mask i put on are different in characters .
i may be your friend , i may be your worst enemy .
i live in pretends , no , not pretends but the different people i ‘wear’ on .
i am a different person each time ,
till i don’t know who i am anymore .
yes , i don’t . who am i ?
the real me is lost among the masks i kept .
who knows ‘me’ ? no one really knows

I've heard so many words
But I have no courage
Now we're saying goodbye
Don't want to miss you tonight
Oh, tell me it's not over now

I trip and fall for you
And I hope you wouldn't mind
Just one more try for something new
I need you, I need you

You've changed me inside
I turned my back on you
You were the only reason I pulled through
My head feels so heavy
My heart is so empty

ineedyou

aloha peeps . how dead is my bloq uhh ? ahha . like i said , won’t be updating much .
dead bloq, almost .

honestly , i have not move on . i still think of yoo , sometimes .
i still love yoo . makes me think , where those sweet words go ?
what do they really mean ?
yoo want me to never forget yoo and to always love yoo .
yoo want me to do this and that . well are yoo doing any for me ?
imissyoo , imissyoorhugs , imissyoorkisses
but i can’t feel all those .
i don’t feel hurt , i don’t feel feelings .
i have no feelings , nope . i do .
but it’s kept in a heart-shaped box , locked and protected .
with walls so strong to last long like paper mache .
no , maybe stronger than that .
i want yoo , very much .
i’m not over yoo yet . but am pretending i am .
am saying , iam over yoo .
but slowly , i miss yoo bit by bit .

today , a rush of feelings escaped into my protected heart . i suddenly miss the moments we had together . but pity , hahs . idk . i hate to say this , but i miss yoo . even though i keep saying i don’t . that’s just how i forget people . it never fail .